So it is the last semester of high school for this girl. I don't know whether to be happy or sad about it. On one hand I can not wait until I get to go off to college and be on my own (not that I don't love my family, because I do!). Get to discover new things and start a new adventure. On the other hand I am sad that this is my last semester of being safe and secure at home and at school. A new church will have to be found, a new group of friends will have to be formed. And just so you know I don't like change very much.
Part of me wants to just live at home and go to ISU. I wouldn't have to change anything, church and home would still be the same. The only thing that would change would be the school. However, I know that God does not want me to live comfortably and to stay the same, I have to leave home, spread my wings, (throw in own cliche phrase).
So, I am ready to make my announcement about where I will be going to school. My family found out on Sunday with a slip of the tongue. We were talking about what car I got and I said something about driving on I-80 to school and no longer then half a second Kelsey jumped on it and figured out I would be going to Iowa. Two seconds later she was texting her boyfriend and not less than five minutes later it was on Twitter via Isaac.
Those two are only happy I am going there because Kelsey will have a place to stay when she comes to visit (Don't deny it, its true). Only one sister is happy I am going to Iowa, Ashley wanted me as far away as possible (Again, don't deny it, its true). My parents, however, are thrilled with my decision. Just a little while ago my dad, who is never sentimental, told me that he didn't like it when his girls were far away (Kelsey was in Wyoming for 9 months last year) and that I should just go somewhere close. My mom, yeah I don't know why she wanted it so bad, but she did.
So there it is the die-hard cyclone fan turned hawkeye. Should I feel dirty? Should I feel like a traitor? Probably, but I don't. Iowa has everything I have ever wanted in a college (minus the Bible part, but I gave up on that when I decided to be a teacher). They have good football, big campus, awesome atmosphere, and lots of ministries going on. It is close to home but not too close, same state but I will feel like I am in my own little world.
So there it is. I can finally put this decision behind. It feels so good to be able to do so. I am fully at peace with this decision and thats how I know that God is good with it also. After lots of prayer and searching I finally decided. THANK YOU GOD!!
However, there is one thing (or family) that I regret will not be near me. the Kvernens. As some of you know my other choice was way up north right next to Fargo, North Dakota. I love the Kvernens and when I found an affordable out of state college up by them I was so excited. I thought that was for sure where I was going, I wasn't even considering Iowa back then. God works in weird ways and now I will be going to Iowa. So, I want to apologize to the Kvernens for getting your hopes up and then letting them fall again. I love you guys and I would have loved to have gone to school up there, but it just wasn't the right fit.
Thanks for reading my longest blog ever.
GO HAWKS!!
